What Love Costs (Photo 7)

What Love Costs

Jay sat gazing into the mirror as the clock tick... tick... ticked. Four hours had managed to escape him while he thought over his situation. He was holding his mother, Natalia, though she couldn’t pass for a three year old. She’d been through hell for him but she wouldn’t have it any other way. Love had put t them into this predicament; however Jay’s faith in love bringing them out was wearing thin.
The day before Jay and Natalia sat in their home. It only consisted of one room but it was theirs. Jay had always longed for the day he would be able to look after his mother because she had got pregnant with him when she was 15. From then Natalia’s life had been a downhill struggle: she dropped out of school, suffered and eating disorder and her father died. Living with her mother, Kathryn, and son had started as a constant battle. Everyday would bring something new for Natalia and her mother to argue over, but as Jay grew the arguments stopped and their family was knitted tighter and tighter.
Unfortunately when Jay turned twelve Kathryn had a stroke and died leaving behind her only child and grandchild. Natalia couldn’t keep up with paying for the home on their own so she and Jay were evicted. Live as a single mother was far from easy but Natalia wouldn’t change her life, the life she shared with Jay for anything.
Knowing all his mum had been through Jay vowed to look after her, so whenever he saw an opportunity to gain money he took it. Hence when he saw an advert in the local newspaper to be used as a guinea pig for a new drug he took it. He forged the parental permission slip and went, unaware that the substance being tested was unsafe. The drug called Laxrotive had been tested on mice and causes a fully grown mouse to look as young as a newborn. Jay didn’t care about the small print of the advert which contained this information; he was more concerned about the £5,000 he could gain in return.
While clearing Jay’s mess Natalia found the advertisement but it was too late, he was already on his way. So she went to the stated address and caught Jay just in time. She tried to explain herself but the scientists wouldn’t allow her so to save time she looked at Jay handed him the newspaper clipping and said ‘There’s no other way...I love you’.
Nothing had happened, Natalia felt perfectly normal and Jay looked at her like she was a mad woman, unaware that Laxrotive took about three hours to kick in. That is how Jay ended up in this predicament; holding his mother in his arms.

Faith and Atheism

Faith
I love that there is a God that never
Fails. To know the maker of everything.
Who loves and is love and will forever.
To give much in return for you to sing.
In complete surrender and with all I
Have to give. Yes it was the over flow
Of your grace that kept me in relation
With you. But the day when your glory shows
Those who knew will be in celebration.
Everlasting God forever more, will
You be a rock once more. For me: shelter
From such a stormy world. For me a still
Peace, through the worst of times. For Me: leader
When my path was hard to find. I love you.


Atheism
I hate when people try to make me one
Of their religious beliefs. Always
On my case. If I was in search of some
Kind of God a church would be in my days
Routine. Yet I do not wish to be seen
In one. When my time comes I highly
Doubt this view will change. Atheism means
I am keen to show theists the lively
way of existence. Carefree a life full
and lead only by me. However they
wish not to hear. So what can I do for
those who do not want to know. Always say
‘God loves you’ but God does not know anymore.
When I was young I was naive not now.