Why? Why must my tortured soul be tormented more just at the thought of my heart being ripped apart? Why must they stop at nothing to ensure that I have no one or anything to comfort me and keep me from crying myself to sleep? Why will I promise myself to be brave and to get through these untimely situations, keeping in mind I will do no such thing?
They lie. One minute, it will be an ordinary day... Birds, flowers... life... And the next...? I'm sucked into a warhole of pitch darkness... unaware of all the deciet, pain and betrayal that are all eagerly awaiting me. I thought I was happy. But was I really? Was I really enjoying the laughter that dare I say... I KNEW was unreal... that was so fake... so crucial... such a lie? Why would they tell me that they did it for ME and not for THEM... when deep in my heart I knew it would've been too good to be true? I guess not. After all, it wasn't all reality, was it?
They laughed with me... So it seemed. It's all so clear now. Had I been so naive... So foolish... And so gullible to not have realised that I was the victim? They didn't want me for me. They wanted me for them. Yes, me for them, and them for my predictable, powerless and passive pain. It felt as if all the hurt had grasped it's sharp. un-cut claws through my heart... Not on all the heart though... THEY controlled the main part.
So that's it. Either way I'm trapped in my own closet... The closet that I didn't see slamming back on me... ME of all people. But what did I do wrong? What could've made them so angry... so spiteful... so vindictive? Afterall... All I did was live. As I said... DID.
So again, why, I ask? Why must I endure all this pain... This hurt... These lies...?
WHY?
Well... again i too used my own opening as i thought it wouldve given this piece another meaning and probably caused it to be a more effective piece of writing. Plz inform me of the good AND bad of the article... and WHY?
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Thank y'all :D
Sabz
I think it is a shame you didn't rise to the specific challenge of the post I had set, as it is sometimes useful practice to work within specific confines.
ReplyDeleteNonetheless, this is powerful stuff, and I especially like your use of devices like the rule of three and, in particular, your broken syntax in paragraphs 2-4, which makes for a very original style.
Heed the comments I have made to some of the others too though - i.e. that it is important to keep your writing more 'measured' at times. Lavish and rich is good at times, but sparse and bare can work just as well too...
thank you sir:D is 1 comment all im worth? :( CMON PEOPLE!! :P
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