Task 30 - Desperate

Desperate

I’m here, your there, you feel so far away.
I’ve got to get you soon, you are my heart.
My mind won’t stop; there’s got to be a way,
For me and you to have a brand new start.
I see I hurt you but for you I’ve changed
the way I live my life. I’m not the same.
Lets Live up to the vows we once exchanged;
forget about the man I once became.
My lungs won’t help me find the air to breathe.
My heart won’t help me pump the blood around.
My eyes won’t even help me to receive
The picture my brain has already found.
What I’m really trying to say to you,
Is, baby I am desperate for you.

embarassment

A scarlet storm clouds over my plump cheeks,
An angry red on a canvas of white,
Cold, my hands shake, they're sweaty and I'm weak,
I try to look calm, yet my muscles tight.
You have made anger, you have made me hurt,
You know you've punctured all my self-respect,
I'm centre of attention, I'm overt,
Talk my way out, alas with weak interlect.
I thank you. Look at me, I'm publics fool,
I look around, no one comes to my aid,
Right about now, I am two inches tall,
Now please forget all the trouble that's been made.
From red to pink to scarlet, I'm ashamed,
My emotion, embarassment is named.

ANGER!

I stare as the rain falls from upon the sky.
I shout and scream as I am told to go to sleep.
My fists clench knowing I've got school tomorrow, I sigh.
My heart pumps faster when I heard that you called me a creep.
My face turns red when you tell me I cannot play.
I explode when a killing is announced on the telly.
I look at your name on the grave and I know there you lay.
I don't understand why toilets are so smelly.
I go mental when you tease me just because of my race.
I hate it when you wake me up so early in the morning.
I hate it when I have to look at your revolting face.
Why doesn't anybody notice my talent to sing.
Why do the holidays have to end so quickly.
It is because the holidays are too short it makes me crazy.

LOVE!

When I close my eyes at times of darkness
My mind unclogs and I see your neat smile
When I am cold and I am defenceless
You make everything for me worthwhile
Your mystical presence is gently dear
So beautiful, comforting and so great
When you are with me I cannot feel fear
I am so fortunate that you're my fate
I knew that you were most definitely
Made just for me like I was made for you
You were written into my destiny
I love the way you're so honest and true
Every moment with you is a treasure
Keeping you in my heart is a pleasure


Sorry I'm Late Sir.. I Was Going To Post It Saturday Morning But My Internet Stopped Working..:S

Distance

Sonnet

I once was sure i loved you too; I did.
I undoubtedly dreamt of me, you and
The moon; on some lonely side street. A quid
I gave you, and you used your skilfull hand
to give me one very professional
Blow job; oh god forbid. It was indeed
only a dream. I loved you then I might
still do; depends on me and my small need.
Our future doesn't seem to be bright
Maybe because you are so many miles
Away from me. My love is not easy
to come across; it very rarely smiles.
Baby please don't, please don't forget; angry
is not something i intend for you to
feel towards me. Distance I can't undo.

Jealousy.

a jade surounding, smokey,dusty air
inhale the smoke, be trapped and feel the mist
a covering, uneven fatal snare
just swallow pain and you will get the gist
i longed, i hoped, my logic cast aside
each string was plucked with slinky, green aplomb
the monster turns it smothers me, it writhes
my sister sense, well she was truly gone
my purpose was to see what was not mine
it gave me fuel, momentum, space to breathe
my love for this it was both dumb and blind
intrinsic to myself like sword and sheathe
my toxic lungs, the swamp of misery
the fish that swim they masticate my heart
it bleeds flourescent green, the puddles form
in each one is reflected, jealous storms.

Task 30 - *Love*

I love you but you make it very hard.
The pain soon rips my soul; you turn away.
I’m tortured, twisted, shaken, sick and scarred.
The fiends of hell let loose in me; they prey
On love that’s true, enjoy its taste, it drips
And stains the floor with deep pools of dark red.
The red, oh red, my god the red, red lips
That smiled the sphinx’s smile; while I did bleed.
That enigmatic smile so quick to guile
Not me though, I sit alone on the chair
I’m hoping that they’ll leave me be. So vile
Are those that chase my dreams; I fall in prayer
Once more. I smile though blinded by the pain
And tonight ‘need’ binds me to you again.

*Chocaholic*

Pessimism

I look up but to see, a darkness, when
I wake up. Where all association
with life is dead. My love for him back then
was stronger than God's own fine creation.
I dream of days where all is unperfect,
Then wake up to find that dreams do come true.
My golden age came to an end; so wrecked.
Where ships may sink so deep into the blue,
Where fairy tales remain undiscovered,
legends, and myths remain myths, in which I
strive to find an answer; Is truth covered?
My mind, body and soul all gone may try
to escape from life wondering on why
he tried to make a blue girl like me cry.

Miss anonymous

How can you define such a perfect love?
My favorite feature; her long golden hair.
The perfect features on her face so fair.
A voice so miraculous like a dove,
She'll intrigue you 'till there's nothing to spare.
Through her exceeding tender, love and care.
We'd play fight and she'd give me a slight shove.
Every aspect so divine in its way,
It moved my heart to see her lovely face.
Everyone that judged her I made them pay.
I can't describe her she's a work of art.
Her as a person is another case.
My heart's telling me that we'll never part.
Nothing will come between us thats for start.

*Miracles*

Task 30

Never have i been so heart broken in my life.
I don't know I loved her with all my heart.
We were so close I thought wed never part.
That beautiful women she was my wife.
She fell pregnant we said wed name him Bart.
In the fair we met in a bumper cart.
When we rowed I'd threaten her with a knife.
She owes me back my hundred dollar hat.
I think of her she makes me cry and weep.
When she she left I snacked making myself fat.
When we parted it made Bart have to choose.
Every time we fought she'd call me a creep.
She stole my money to buy high heel shoes
I said is this the end of me and you

restraint

That seemingly ineffectual space
In time, was actually not at all.
And now, he waits, he dares to step apace
He hesitates, convinced he will soon fall.
Yet taunts from his subconscious drive him on.
Intimidation fails to stop him now,
He charges. Man or monster, from far yon
A fantasy, yet not quite sure just how
He will defeat a beast of such status.
The climax soon arrives. To his dismay,
All bloody services, for him, gratis.
A step too far? The price he had to pay
Proved that. Temporarily nonplussed he
Gives up, now left a timid devotee.

Love

Ill always crave the warmth of your embrace
and looks of your bewitching eyes, but then
as time goes by, I hate to see your face
and long to be myself and free, again.
The damage love can do should scare us all
but still we crave such love. It leaves us sick.
Although no cure for love is taught at school
we learn to heal its cuts and scars so quick.
My lust for you it seems I can’t destroy
because when we were bound i felt alive.
but lust is hate when it's deprived of joy
and joy is what we need: need to survive
If life is love then death is hate, I live
to use my love. is all that i can give

Grief

You have left me here. No longer am I
To see you again. Your voice lurks my mind.
The thought that you've left me can make me cry.
You left me alone. You left me behind.
Your face swamps around my head. Dreams of you
Haunt me every night. I loved you so.
Everyday you were here my love grew.
Then came the day I had to let you go.
Everything reminds me of you. Each
Noise I hear. Every man that I see.
Each dream I have of you. I try to reach
For you . But then you walk away from me.
But I wake up and remember you're gone.
My love for you will never be withdrawn.

Task 30 - Love

Why do you torture me so much?
You've taken my heart and dashed it against a wall.
Do you enjoy smashing my soul and such.
Your words pounded into me causing me to fall
Into deep misery, depression and agony.
I see your face at the back of my eye.
I cant eat cause your rejection haunts me.
Every time you see me you give this little sigh.
I know that forgetting you is the key,
But I cant, everytime you deny me I
Want you even more. You to be beside me
Forever. To have you by my side to hold my
hand. This vast wound you have torn open won't mend
But I will always love you until the end

Hate

A word that many say we should not use
Because the meaning is too strong.But I,
For many years, put up with your abuse
I even used to wish that you would die.
The way that you would walk into the room
Would make me want to run away and hide
Because one move would take me to my doom.
To know this now do you feel satisfied?
To know that it was you that left me down.
To know that I could not get over it.
For you made me the hate of all the town,
And then you cut me up in little bits.
So now that you are dead, I do not care
Because not I can live life with no fear.

Task 30 - Hurt

The deep, red blood which pumps inside my chest,
Is rushing up into my aching head.
It's telling me to take a long deep rest.
Please tell me that my body is not dead.
I feel hard, stinging pain that unleashed from,
Under my moisturized, clear, beautiful
Skin. I hope I can still go to my prom
Tonight, it was a plan so wonderful.
Until this horrible disaster came,
Silently and very quickly to
Take away my popularity fame.
My voice that know sounds like a quite moo,
Leaving me alone to die by myself.
Slowly I’m gone to the top of my shelf.

Task 30 - Love.

My love is incomplete; you’ve gone too far.
I’m left with pain, my blood burns red. I’m scared.
You left my love fragmented with a scar.
My big mistake was thinking that you cared.
The love I had, I need it back. It’s true
My tears drip memories; the lovely past.
A shattered view; we're not together. Two
Of us, my dream is gone. It went too fast.
The moon is magical, my love is too.
You loved me, now you hold her hands in yours.
A lie, it took my happiness I knew
I had. My love is death in all the wars.
I'll love you always and forever though
My tears are beautiful and cold as snow.

Optimism

The glass will always be half full, despite
The fact that you are not here. Walk away
Because it's what you're good at. I was right:
So now that you're not here to sway or fray
Me anymore, I'll learn to fend for my-
Self. Days are brighter, clouds seem fuller, now
That you're not here decaying them. You lie
Your way through my defences, I say "Ciao."
I see the world through different eyes now. You
The criminal, you rocked my world and shook
It into millions of pieces. True,
My life will only improve. But you took
My heart and dipped it in your acid lies,
My optimism brought to its demise.

Guilt and Anger

It leaves me in a world of no mans land,
It swells up quick and strong within my chest.
My optimisms thin just like a strand,
A witches curse could do less harm at best.
Connections with my conscience truly lost,
The rage, the fury rip my soul to shreds!
I may try to contain it, it’ll cost
Unlucky souls whilst they feel pain and dread.
Alas! I cannot stop it gushing out!
My fist swings wayward as I charge towards
The soon to be unlucky hang-about,
All I can do now is pray to the lord
That the boy’s journey from above to floor,
Did not hurt him at all in face or jaw.

Task 30 Exemplar: LOVE

I love you. But those words sound incomplete
And guilty by association. Why
Does language tie my hands and bind my feet?
I cannot move. But how can I deny
The way I feel? As well say day is night
As profer moderation when the truth
Has burst its banks. My world is black and white
And hot with the intensity of youth.
My thermostat is wrecked. I like and so
I love. My heart won't take the bit between
Its teeth, shakes off the reins. I do not know
How feelings can be fettered. I have seen
The damage that I do, and I am scared.
Leave love locked up. It harms when it is shared.